She was restless ,she tried to figure it out but couldn’t .
Why was she feeling like this,it was totally expexcted.
At this stage of life when she was in her mid of 26 th and single .
It was totally okay to feel misfit,you know.
As all friends were already married ,few left ones are busy with their rokas and engagements.Few were busy with their jobs and kids
So wasn’t it expected to feel lonely as she was loosing all her support system from her family too.
Somehow she too felt herself responsible for not getting a suitable match till now.
As she rejected all those prespective grooms at the age of 22 to 25 for her long term boyfriend who just gave up on her simply like that and moved on.
So ,she was left with nothing in her hand but what was making her feel so helpless ??
Wasn’t that obvious, after all she made a mistake by not getting married at an early age of 23 or 24.
Was her desicions ,her choices was really a mistake??
The girl who never used to doubt her decisions failed to answer herself.
At every single night while trying to sleep ,her friend’s voice echoed in her ears “don’t be so choosy “.
Some aunty saying “what do you expect in late 20s ,you don’t have much choices”.
Someone saying “if you find someone just get settled now ,don’t keep finding faults”.
After all it was expected .
She used to stay alone now as her flatmate got married too.
They try to catch up once in a while but doesn’t happen often.
She was thinking to shift her hometown ,may be she will be able to find a decent job their and spend time with her parents but then remembered their tensed face and staying infront of them 24 by 7 is only going to give them more stress by reminding that their daughter is still unmarried.
So she decided to stay there only lead her life as she have always wanted to ,and not think about what if she will not get a suitable match ever .
She shrugged off all her thoughts .
It was ashtami(eighth day of navratri) she had to get ready to for aarti (Evening prayer).
After all maa shakti ( goddess durga) will definitely give her strength to take control of her life even if she doesn’t get a suitable match.
Author’s note : We are worshipping goddess durga but we can not let a single women live peacefully by constantly reminding her that she was incapable of getting a suitable match ,even her own freinds will constantly feel pity for her.Can’t we just leave it to maa shakti,and that girl herself to get the “shakti” to live her life alone till she finds the one.
Their life is already tough lets not make it more tough.